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From: Jacques Chitte1/13/2009 5:54:58 PM
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I remember being born.
Frankly, at my age I remember remembering a cool thing. I told it to my mother and elder sister when I was five. Here's the meat of it:

Space is brown.
I am a dimensionless point of awareness in Space-is-brown. I note the self-awareness emergence event: "I am noticing that I am." Within about two seconds, I notice motion. I am traveling backward in an S-curve, but I have no real sense of size or speed of the motion. Just "down, back, down". Subjective time, five to fifteen seconds. Suddenly I am in a very bright place: white,pistachio green, light blue.

That's the memory proper. I do believe it is an authentic birth memory. The fact that I was a breech presentation does much to explain the direction of travel (it maps well to the passage from uterus across the straits of Pelvis and then the reorientation into the cervical space).

I have no emotional tags on this memory - it was always silent and quite dispassionate. I don't believe it ever recurred in a form I can identify in my dreams of earliest childhood. At ages one and two I had recurring dreams, some of them delightful. They went away and were replaced over the years by different sets of recurring dreams, most of them neutral-to-awesomely pleasant. Only since my neurological crash at age forty (summer 2001) have I had recurring dreams that were unpleasant in nature: processing shame/guilt associated with being removed from the high-performance self-supporting track of society and its attendant economy.

cheers js
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